“This is a great movie, but I will not watch it again.”
I read this comment online, and I believe it is true for many people. This movie is fascinating, suspenseful and worth-thinking. But it also includes depression, panic, violence and pornography. It is just too depressing.
But today I want to talk about one thing among all of these — the growth, from kawaii to mature. In this movie, I saw Mima overcame all difficulties and grew up. When she decided to act the raped plot, she said “I will do it” in front of people, but she was questioning herself inside. A small detail: in the raping play, Mima’s costume was kawaii and very similar to CHAM’s costume. It means in Mima’s heart, that kawaii & pure pop star was stained. And after the play, she sat in the dressing room alone, dressed all black. This scene is even more shocking than the rape scene. Because at that moment, something inside Mima’s heart started to change. She questioned herself. She doubted if her choice was right, if she was corrupting. She was struggling inside.
Then she couldn’t distinguish the real life and the play she acted. She even thought she killed the photographer when she saw the bloody clothes. Actually there was a very small detail in the movie. The bag Mami took from supermarket was printed “F.G.G” but the bloody bag was printed “F G G”. Author was hinting us that Yumi killed those people. The most impressive scene for me is that at the end when Yumi wanted to kill Mima, she said “Don’t kid. Mima is a pop star. You are just a dirty fake.” Mima cried and answer “I don’t care. I am just myself.”
At the end when Mima visited Yumi in the hospital, she already became a very famous star needed to wear sunglasses outside. If there wasn’t the “old Mima”, now there won’t be a new Mima. Now she can say confidently, “I am the real Mima.” After all difficulties and dangers, she found the true Mima, and lived as she wanted. Kawaii appearance is cute, but a mature heart is what we need.